New Technology

I downloaded the Blogger app to my iPhone in the hopes that I will find the inspiration to post more. Here's hoping...


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I Promise I'll Write...

I haven't written in a long, long time. I'm so sorry. :(

Tomorrow there will be a post of substance. Tomorrow there will be letters.

Alone

I have the perfect boyfriend, perfect relationship, perfect family, perfect friends - but everyone I love is so far away from me. I feel so very imperfect. I'm alone.

Depression

I'm losing it.

All my friends are either getting married or welcoming little ones.

Instead of happy, I'm sad. I wish it was me.

I'm almost 30 and going nowhere fast.

/sigh

Time

One month left until I see him again. This time I don't want to go home. Every time I have to say goodbye to him it is harder and harder to recover. I walk around for months afterwards like some sick drug addict who can't find a score. Depressed. Lonely. Wishing.

Things I Need...

1. Him
2.
3.

...just him. :(

Really Now?

I know I haven't posted anything of substance recently, and this certainly doesn't account for such either, but I need to vent a few things to anyone who has an open minute to read them.

There is a hurricane brewing within my family and soon the full on storm will hit. Each day the winds get stronger and stronger and I don't know if this makeshift shelter I've built for myself will withstand it. I don't make a habit of wishing angry things on people, but for this person, I wish to them exactly what they deserve.

Let me issue a full on consumer warning to everyone: Do not do business with Dish Network. They are still trying to bill me for an account that I didn't sign up for service to a house that has been sitting vacant for over 3 years. Yay, more attorney fees. /sigh

Yay for Friday. Bleh for Friday. I get to "celebrate" a coworker's birthday that totally blew mine off last year. While I don't expect a present, just for her to attend the little lunch we hold, she unexpectantly "forgot to turn off her curling iron" and had to run home during mine. Then she preceeded to question me about what my boyfriend bought me for my birthday when she clearly knows he doesn't do the birthday-thing. I think I'll work really hard at being sick on Friday.

I don't even want to talk about the economy...other than that the fools running this garbage now won't live long enough to feel the brunt of destruction that they have placed in my already burning hands.

Another gem for today...I'm wearing two different socks I've discovered. Yes, both are black, but indeed different.

Can this month get any worse? /tear

My New Love Affair

Can I be any more in love with technology?

/swoon

Slacker

I’ll be the first to admit that I’ve been lazy about writing anything in this blog. I’m also slightly convinced that even if I did that no one would read it. Being negative has been a trend of late.

My hour morning commute to work is getting worse every month. I don’t understand with the unemployment rate being so high, how they are honestly more people on the roads. Since just January I’ve passed by 3 fatal accidents, witnessed 1 minor accident, was almost involved in an accident 4 times and have experienced countless moments of fear from other people driving recklessly or burning tires of road rage. One would think that a simple straight stretch of road would be so easy to drive. Apparently not.

After a trip to the “eyeball doctor” this week I found out that my consistent headaches, itchy eyes and minor blurs in vision are not allergy-related. I’m suffering from a case of severe eye strain due to my continual daily use of the computer. My eyes are so used to living in the nearsighted world that my far sight vision has been grossly affected. A minor prescription for glasses was recommended. :P

Session is going as usual, well, as usual as one can expect considering the state of Oregon’s economic status. When you don’t have money, how can you spend it? Apparently the triple-majority is still finding ways to do so as they are continuing to spend my tax dollars on ridiculous things such as a bill to make “throwing feces, urine or semen at another human” illegal. Do we really need to specify that in a law? I personally, see that as a form of assault without having to define it. Another bill would lift the “pet to work” ban from the recently remodeled Capitol building sponsored in-part by a Senator who is pissed that she can’t bring her hairy dog to work with her anymore. What kind of people do we have in Oregon? Really.

My only glimmer of happiness is that I’ll finally be able to escape to Arizona in July and see my precious boyfriend. He keeps my feet on the ground and my easily annoyed mind at ease. I’m so thankful for him.

Tired

I'm so tired of living without you...

...come rescue me already. :(

10 Attributes of Really Lazy People

1. Inability to put forth the effort required to complete any task.

I can't stand saying goodbye...

I spent 5 of the most beautiful days with my love...

...and cried all the way home from the airport when I had to say goodbye.

This distance is more painful than anything I can express.

Oregon 150

Happy Birthday Oregon!

Chained

I am blessed…yet I have a hard time smiling about it. It seems that everything wonderful has some dark side to it. The cliché “every rose has its thorn”, in all the paraphrasal nonsense that it presents, is the echo of my emotions.

Finding happiness and having my delicate triangle interrupted by another form of happiness is making everything seem like too much good is a bad thing.

My career is rewarding, social, important and exciting. Everyone my age that dreams of getting into the political world would fight for my job. Golden opportunities abound. I love my career and value it. It is just that during this time of year it is also so demanding that it keeps me second guessing when I can find time for the most important thing in my world; love.

The demands keep me here and yet his arms are calling out for me to run to him. I feel chained against a concrete wall just out of reach from the precious cup of life-saving water. I need him to be here and I need to be there with him. I want to break the chains on my desk preventing me from satisfying the burning desire to kiss him again.

This distance…is killing me.

I would give up my position, money, status, life…just to be his forever.

*grumble*

Someone lied when they told these two women that they had talent...

Britney:

You "ARE" a circus. That's the only reason people still follow you.

Beyonce:

Yeah, the only thing you "put a ring on" is within my ear drums.

Seriously folks...if we stop buying their albums...they might go away.