It won't be long...

If a cherry tree could talk,

it would probably boast it invented romance.

We shall see...come spring or summer.

<3

Today is Mine

The chaos in my pretty little triangle of cerebral balance is silent. Senate session has reached sine die, things are calm in my castle and my dreams are coated in the soft pink petals of cherry blossoms. I’m happy for the moment.

Even though lag spikes keep getting tossed into my happy little network of sunshine and rainbows I am still holding onto my smile. I can place blame on the economy, new paths opening up, challenges being presented. I am a gladiator in my own right and will not waiver. It’s funny how sometimes I think the world is against me only when I’m happy. Almost like it is trying to drag me back into my darkened state.

I have news for you cruel world…not this time…today is mine!

Night Wires

The night is full of whispers in the dark, soft serenades, giggles, inside jokes that only we would understand, innocent teasing, deep philosophical discussion, text messages with sly remarks, ponderances, pillow talk romance, sharing dreamstate episodes and, best of all of these, love.

I hope it won’t always be this way…but then again…maybe I do.

Panda

.:Panda Love:.

Flash of Comedy

Some things in this world are just made for comedy and I think I've discovered the greatest one of those...myself.

Last night I rushed into the bathroom to go pee (yeah, like usual) and in the process of ripping down my pants I forgot that my flash drive was stuck in my pocket. In my rush for urgency the flash drive flipped out of my pocket and plummeted into the toilet bowl. Still having to pee I fished the little bugger out (yeah, thrilling) and ran it under the sink hoping that whatever grossness in the toilet bowl had not ruined my flash drive of mental sanity. I dried it the best I could and left it wrapped in a small washcloth in my room to dry. Then I proudly marched back into the restroom and reveled in the enjoyment of emptying my bladder.

When I arrived home last night I jacked a Diet 7up from the stash in the refrigerator and danced up the stairs in an attempt to be optimistic that my precious flash drive would still be in operable order. Fingers trembling in anticipation, like a boy about to get to second base for the first time, I fired up my Dell and plucked in the flash drive. Waiting for the green light, finger on the mouse, the engine roars...the light turns green. It's alive!

Loved

I’ve never before in my life felt more beautiful than I do right now. And it is all thanks to the most wonderful man. I received the most thoughtful bouquet of flowers today from the best Valentine. Not only are they placed in a beautiful martini glass vase, but they are stargazer lilies. No man has ever bought me stargazers and yet this one is so in tune with me that he remembered my favorite flower. He managed a complete surprise concocted without the help of my friends or family. Can I just tell him that he really is perfect? I can’t say enough about the sparkle he has put in my eye and the warmth that has been lit in my heart.

Who would have thought, me, at a complete loss for words? I’m sitting here trying to describe how he makes me feel and all I can do is melt into a little puddle of love. He is amazing, my best friend, and I can’t find a better way to tell him…

I love you! <3

Seriously

SERIOUSLY.

Job Description

In lieu of Valentine’s Day...

* * * *

Position: My “Urban Renaissance Man”

Reports to: Himself, his creator, his family and to me.

Job Requirements: Honest, respectful, educated, playful, strong-value-system, family-oriented, self-starting, responsible, traditional, accomplished, hard-worker, humorous, classy, physically active man; age 23-35. Available for a long-term and potentially serious relationship. No current children and not devastated if relationship does not evolve to the status of parenthood. No racial extremists, felons, atheists, vampires or non-US Citizens need apply.

Desired Skills (Not required): Possess musical ability or an appreciation for, not allergic to cats or dogs, love for ethnic foods and travel.

Duties:

• Treating me like someone loved and cherished. This includes, but is not limited to, talking every day, being chivalrous (opening doors, escorting by arm when I’m in heels, etc.), romance (sweet talk, compliments, planning outings, flowers, surprises) and mutual respect (knowing his place as a man and taking the initiative to operate in that capacity).
• Working out any disagreements, rather than clamming up or disappearing.
• Willing to share his culture with me and experience mine in return.
• Being loyal and not seeking other women.
• Being a passionate and giving lover who also openly receives. Great kissing required.
• Giving grace if I do something he initially interprets as negative. Discussing the issue, gaining details and resolving it in an adult manner without assumptions.
• Sharing feelings about life and our relationship on a regular basis.
• Working to continually improve himself and his environment.
• Living his life with personal integrity, including but not limited to, doing what he says he will, calling when he promises, doing what’s right and not just necessarily what’s easy.
• Having the courage to bring up difficult topics, and engaging maturely when I do the same.
• Not be afraid to ask questions when the topic is not fully understood.
• Being financially mature and responsible.
• Hardworking and takes pride in his career. Always looking to better himself with educational opportunities.
• Consciously taking care of his body so he is healthy and active.
• Laughing at my pathetic attempts to be funny.
• Understand my riddles, neurotic behavior, spontaneous talk and moments of insecurity. Able to comfort and make me laugh when I experience these episodes.
• Socializing willingly and pleasantly in groups or with friends, both his and hers.
• Planning outings like dancing, films, sporting events, dinners out, theater, parties, concerts, and other activities both enjoy.
• Take pride in his home, furnishings and yard by showing a clear understanding of value and continuing a conscious effort to maintain that value.
• Participating in physical activities together (biking, hiking, walking, dancing) or alone (working out, running, golf, other sports). Regular physical activity a must.

Benefits: Includes lots of kissing, caressing, cuddling, passion, understanding, respect, kindness, fun activities, home-cooked meals, laughter, spotlessly-clean home, support of your endeavors, dedicated woman to serve as the other half in a traditional relationship, positive attitude and feedback.

Control

Dark clouds are affecting my inspiration level and I have failed to compose anything genuine or new here for a long time. I’m sorry friends.

I want to run away and find a safe place to hide from the insanity in which my life is blended. Instead of living my life forcefully molded into what everyone else wants for me, I need to break free and accept that my life is my own. I want to be allowed to make my own mistakes without judgment. When does my life really begin?

Where the hell am I?

"I'll, uh, tell you where you are if you tell me who you are."

The Sammus Theory

My talented cousin Sam and his band "The Sammus Theory" recently played MTV. I'd like to dedicate this post to him for overcoming the challenge of the music industry and chasing that rainbow. Go Sam Go! :D (Note: Pause the Music Player on the bottom of my blog for full enjoyment.)

.:The Sammus Theory on MTV:.

Interested in hearing more? Check out "The Sammus Theory" on myspace and their website.http://thesammustheory.net/http://www.myspace.com/thesammustheory